I am so blessed to have the opportunity to comfort someone in their last days on earth. To be able to sit and talk and laugh when we both know it is just a matter of time before they leave this earth. To know in my heart, "Today I brought a little bit of sunshine to this person's day." For even just a little while they forgot about the pain and discomfort that has become their life. Everyday when I leave I want to give them a hug and tell them how honored and humbled I am to see their strength. It must be difficult to smile when inside you want to cry, to wake up when you really want to just sleep forever, to be brave enough to face a new day when you just wish you could die and get it over with. I cannot begin to imagine how it must feel to wake up not knowing of this is the day that you will go to sleep and never wake up. The day is coming soon but when??? How long will you have to wait, praying everyday that this is the day. You are desperately knocking on deaths door but no one will answer. What do you say?? What can you say?? Everyday when I leave their house I don't know if I will ever see them alive again. So when I leave I always try to put a smile on their face before I go. I want their last thoughts to be happy thoughts. I want them to know they are loved and that they will be missed. May Allah bless my little person and forgive any wrong he may have done. I won't see him for two days and insha Allah I will see him on Monday.
Surrounded by death and dying at work, I go to the masjid to ask Allah to grant these people peace and a smooth transition into the next life. I ask that Allah forgive them any transgressions and to look at only the good things. I thank Allah for putting these people on my life even if it is for a short time. I have learned so much from people who are dying and I am blessed to be a part of a team of medical professionals who are there to care for a person when they are dying. Then I give thanks to Allah for life, health and family love. I give thanks for all my blessings and ask for forgiveness for myself and my family. Yes I am Muslim, but I am also human. I make mistakes and Allah knows this and because we are human and not perfect, Allah forgives us if we ask to be forgiven.
I love Allah and Allah lives me. I don't need any other God but Allah.